Sunday, May 30, 2010

I Fly My Way.

Valentine's Day. Graduation Season. They all passed by so quickly. And in a week, summer's over. There is a lot to tell but then again when I start to scribble them down, I start screening all the events in my head. I still am the semi-private person i used to be although i can say I have changed a lot since high school. I have come out a little from my nutshell. Yes, a little, because I still keep a lot to myself... Summer thingy- a little fling we have right there, let's just say. My friend set me up with this prototype guy. I came to suddenly like him. A little surprised because I don't usually get to like someone after one short talk (esp if I don't know the guy at first). So I'd say he passed. And after how many years, I realized there is so much in the world than to linger on some ancient feelings (yep, ancient! maybe i can blog about it some other day). I actually thought I found what i was looking for. But then again, it was all so strange. From the very start, it just felt so right that makes it really wrong. And as always (my gut feeling never failed me) I was right (big sigh!). I had my heart broken and someone's gotta learn her lesson. I fell and fell hard...

Despite me crushed, it made me appreciate how blessed I am to be free and just be me. I really thought I was ready for a relationship but I doubt that now. It is so much fun to be all by yourself and not worry about anything but me (la la la). It's not that I am so into me *wink* and of course, I'm not an anti-relationship advocate. I guess what I'm trying to say is I am happy now. I have friends and "sort-of-friends" (smiles), and that makes me real okay. It makes me fly my way.